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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Just so not long ago, I met a friend from years ago. A very sunshine and good looking basketballer when I frequented playing basketball during my first 3 years of secondary school. It's been so long since I last met him on streets, and I suppose I've become more 'handsome' , that's why I had to call his name out and bring his attention on me. Other than the common greetings, asking about how have you been and how is he, he said I've changed a lot. I tried not reading too much into it, and I put him off the topic by commenting I've grown fatter.



Now back at home, nothing seems to stop my mind from you've changed a lot.. you've changed a lot... Just a pity what he meant wasn't in physical. He meant the person I've become into, and inevitably, I felt as if he was asking himself why has Hawwei changed into this manner when he mentioned me changed just now. I'd want to find an answer to myself, why ? It's been so long, but nothing comes soothing to mind. I can't say peer influence, because I've been clear headed in knowing what's right and wrong and the people I hang out with are truly nice people. I can't say family problems, because in that way I'll be indirectly blaming my mum on her rantings and my dad for his neglect in my feelings; afterall they were the one who brought me here.





Since both cases are not fit for an answer, what is it?



Since you left me dead laid here ;
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